Euphoria.

Halo.

It has been a really long period before I stop writing. Seems like my time mostly had been used up just by scrolling Twitter or Facebook. You bet people, Twitter&Facebook are just a waste of time though you can't deny how seductive and addictive they are.
So here I am typing the keyboard, wondering why the hell am I writing in this blog all over again? Can't seem to answer the question  specifically but I just thought this could be an exercise for me to narrate and enhance my writing skills somehow. Sounds absurd and nerd but it's sort of true though. Oh yeah, and I miss blog. Yes, you heard me, I miss blogging.

How's life? Getting harder and harder each day but I try to control and face it with ease and smiles. It's like wether you want to curse the life you're living 24/7 or just face the problem and be optimism about life & just enjoy. Your choice, mate. The life you're living in, it's true you only live once but in this dream world but always remember the Hereafter. That's the permanent life of yours. All the things you had done, you are doing or you will do will be screened in front of your Creator later. Where would we hide our faces in front of the Creator if we had been rude,reckless and ignore the orders from Him throughout the years we had lived in this world. To make it sounds much more terrifying, you could just lose those heartbeat you're feeling inside your body, the heart pump and the adrenaline just in a blink of an eye. So why waste seconds of your life?
Remember; if you feels like your life is hard, think again. Your life is so much better than the homeless, moneyless and the people who suffer as their nation are in war. Be grateful no matter what. If things we'd ever expected happened, redha. Yes, easy to say but hard to do but at least, try? What's the use of the existence of the word 'try' if you erase it from your life dictionary?

High school. I could not believe 2013 is actually going to be my senior year. My final year in school. After almost 10 years being called as the 'budak sekolah', finally by 2014 I'll be free from being labeled as that. Nevertheless, I can assure that I'll be missing my school so much. I'll be missing those fun memories, the years where everything was so fun and you could just enjoy your life even if you didn't do your homework. Being punished, playing truant, skipping classes. And as soon as you grow up, you started to be responsible and following the school rules 'cause you just had to. Breaking the school laws would probably the most exciting,thrilling experience ever. Those were the days where you'd be rebellious and felt like you had already grown up, &yes not listening to the elders. But that's just what 'teenagers' means, right? The phase where your parents,teachers needs full capacity,maximum level of patience. And I wonder will I ever do the same when the life cycle turns to me as I'll be a mother someday. Oh screw growing up. I miss my childhood so freaking much. And as how excited I am to get rid of myself from the school laws and school, I'm freaking out to face the real life ahead of me in the future. Will I ever be a successful person? Will I ever complete my courses? And the most important to live in this world, will I ever be able to earn money and support myself? Oh Allah, please ease everything for me.

How time flies like a speed of light, lucky it didn't fly like the speed of sound lol
We are now in February 2013 & it has already near to its end. SPM in December.
March... April... May.. June... July... August.. September.. October... November... December.
Looks and seems like it's still a bloody long way to go but trust me, you'll be surprise just how fast time flies. In the mid February, classes have started. Schedule got tighter and tighter. Trying to balancing classes,studies and homework, &not to mention, tuitions. Ouch. "When there's a will, there's way" & I will NEVER SAY NEVER. I hope so.
Just like UPSR and PMR, I'll try to bring back the victory by earning Straight As in SPM. Just a little bit more of focus,effort and exercises. Oh God please take away the laziness inside of me. The laziness which had been a part of me and inseparable since I've been able to breathe. Please wish me luck.

At this time being, I will feel diligent to update the blog and talking about random stuffs or just prattle. Let's see if I'm "diligent" enough to write after this.As if people read what I'm typing. lol
Well actually.. I started writing again because...... I envy people who writes such fluent, flawless writings and using bombastic words in their writings. I just can't seem to reach that point of level, yet. I wish I will someday, somehow.

Okay, enough. Assalamualaikum.